Before you can know if you are living up to your own expectations, you need to know what you are expecting.
Creating an attention-grabbing image every time you indulge in a shooting binge is easy to expect. After all creating an attention-grabbing image is the whole point.
It’s good to expect the best. to believe there are angles, composition, lighting that you can bring together that will be a pleasure to view. When you think you can, you try. (Yes, Yoda, there is such a thing as trying). Everytime you try you create a few new synaptic connections. The more synaptic connections, the better.
If it doesn’t turn out. Move on to the next binge and try again. You are better than you were the last time.